three more days and i'll be as good as dead..

it was approaching.
and nothing can stop it..
too much hopes..
too much pressure..

miracles did nothing this time./

i've just have to go through it.
im scared.

the day i've turned 17..i am big girl now,

12112009.
on 12 am.

i was ready to open the card the mum and dad had just sent.
then, the very important person stopped and wished me. thnx.
and soon the singing of 'happy birthday' song broke the stillness of the night
in my dorm.

daa.
she didnt even come down to wish me.
fine..

nway, thnks to adk amer, angah and faiz for the early wishes
and the rest of the family.
i wondered how come along forget to wish me..
she never did before.

the morning,
as i had expected,
a lot of people forgot the date.
abel, pika, mcd, fadz, shu and others,
they were pretending like it was just like other days.

tortures hit me like a thunderbolt.
suprises come one by one.

when i went back to dorm, all i could see
was a huge poster (should i call it a card??) plastered next
to my locker.
it was from mcD.
what a huge one.
she escaped chemistry class to finish it and put it on my wall.
thanks.

at night, the others still didnt wish me,.
i went to nawar's, for a chat.
then, abel came down, holding a cake.
there were fadz, azmira and qist.
and not to forget cheah ( she wished me in the morning and
write the birthday wishes on my desk)
they sang the birthday song,.
that was too much.
i didnt expect any of that..
wishes would be enough.
anyway, thnks for that small party we had.
no wonder abel and fadz kept disappearing during class.
they went to ask a teacher to buy a cake.

and abel,
thnks for the new diary you gave me.
i dont know.
you're just know everything that is in my mind.
for that, once again,
thank you.
'new diary, new life'
i wont forget that,..

p/s: happy birthday to me.(how pathetic is that??)